Can't Sleep

I can't sleep tonight.  I am just sick to my stomach.  I went to Chelsie's viewing tonight.  It was great to see some old friends but horrible to see them under such awful circumstance.  I got to catch up with Nate, Chelsie's boyfriend.  It was so good to see him.  He was so great to me and I would have never survived Freshman English if it weren't for him.  He made class so much fun and it was nice to have a partner that actually works harder than I do.  I thought I had done well with this lose until I saw him.  When he saw me, he just started crying.  I lost it after that.  I wish I could take away some of the pain he is feeling.  We talked for a bit and I am so glad I went to the viewing and got to visit with him.  He told me about how he had done so well until he saw two people...Chad (his best friend)  and me.  I wanted Nate to know people love him and feel his pain and are behind him.  Life is so short.  I am so thankful for all the amazing people I have in my life.  I have been blessed.  I have done a lot of pondering this past week and my heart it full with gratitude and humility.  I have more compassion and have been able to think in the bigger perspective.  Life is too short to hold grudges.  Life is too short to not spend time with those you love.  Life is too short to not make every relationship count.  It is just a shame that it takes instances like this to make us grow.  I must have a lot growing to do in a short amount of time.   In the past 3 years I have had 3 big losses and each time I have grown.  I strongly believe God is taking his strongest angels to prepare for what is in store for us.   I am glad to know I have 3 strong women looking over me right now.  We are all in good hands.  Anyway, I'm starting to sound like a crazy person.  I have just had a lot to think about.  I am so grateful for an amazing husband who will do anything for me and makes me so happy.  I am thankful that he went with me tonight although he didn't know Chelsie.  I am even more thankful that he would wait in line for 3 hours with me so we could pay our respects.  Make sure you tell your loved ones you love them and don't take them for granted.